heartfelt velvet

i had a lovely heart-to-heart conversation with a dear friend last night. we haven't spoken to each other in ages. these days people rarely make time for each other to catch up on things. that's life, i guess.

one thing i have you know is that i'm the type of person that tend to box up all my emotions inside (i was reminded of the term 'closed box', which made me remember that i once mentioned to my friend during our Uni years, 'who would want to be an open box?' wahhhh that was soOoOo long ago, i've forgotten...). if i'm sad or unhappy or if there's anything that i'm usually not in favor of emotionally, i choose to forget, setting it aside in an isolated section of my brain, with little intention of accessing it later. i find this much easier to do than to face all the hardship and pain-wrecking emotions that i am eager to leave behind and forget. i realize that this isn't really a good habit but it's one of the ways that make me able to cope.

after hanging up the phone, i realized that there's a lot of the good things in my life that i've really forgotten. it seems that in the process of forgetting the pain and the sadness, i've also accidentally forgotten the smaller, happier moments, those tiny moments that people tend to overlook, that actually makes living worthwhile. last night we talked about life, how we could have made different choices if we were given the choice to turn back time, whether we were happy with how life turned out to be... well, mostly crap =P. but heart warming crap... i'm surprised my friend could remember so much which happened years ago, while i realized just how bad my memory has detoriated - unintentionally ok!

well, either that, or i'm suffering from some very severe memory ailment. lol.

we summed the conversation up to one simple rule: make the best of what you have, and cherish every little moment that you get, especially the good ones. because it's those little moments we tend to ignore that really counts. choosing to ignore problems in life isn't a healthy way to solve them in the first place. and just because all the bad stuffs happen to you, it doesn't mean that good things will never happen to you. you wouldn't know what's gonna happen in the future (i hate this sentence nevertheless, people tend to be impatient and demand to know what's gonna happen in the future. pffft, like that's ever gonna happen).

and another thing? my friend is usually right. ironically enough, me and my friends will do the total opposite of what my friend has recommended, i.e we never listen. haha, go figure.

anyway, don't be surprised if the next thing you know, i suffer from MPD. lol.