and the dread continues

i feel sick. been feeling sick the past week. i even lost my appetite looking at my wraps, if you can imagine that. i've been feeling a bit gassy the past week, with me feel like throwing up if i don't take my meals on time. someone used to tell me i should always eat my meals on time, because once a gastric patient, always a gastric patient *gulp*.

did i mention i even loss my mood to shop? i suppose that's a good thing. heck i even passed up the chance to buy a Jumpsac RS at 30% off! was i crazy, or what? (on the bright side, i did manage to convince a new mama friend of mine to get one for herself, so here's to you Syaz, and here's to another new babywearing mama =P).

browsing through fsot makes me want to puke. i haven't been crapping much in the forums either. haha. i think those mbw mamas miss me already =P.

i even lost the mood to blog. i find it a bit disappointing when people plucks out certain bits and pieces of your blog for their own villainous reasons. it's up to you if what you want to write (as a place to express how you feel inside, ain't it?) but it's just not nice for readers to spread the news around as if it were their own... i believe the word is 'gossip'. bahhhhhh.

then i have the house to think about... it's not cheap to buy a house!!! think a million times before you decided to get a house of your own. well, unless you're really loaded and don't really care about the expenses incurred... =P

remember i mentioned about a feeling of dread accompanying the new year? well... is this it???? *gulp*. at this rate i am sooo not looking forward to the end of the month when i'll be throwing myself back in the sea where all the sharks are *teeth chattering*. i hope it's for the best. i don't want to go crying in the opposite direction.

but then... each dark gloomy cloud has a silver lining. and i received my silver lining yesterday.

"Ak*bar Ikhl*as: Excited but at the same time feeling worried..."

hmm. maybe i should start to worry as well. eh wait, does worrying qualify as a silver lining? hahahahaha.

i haven't been writing much about Dayana these days, forgive me. but i do wanna write down before i forget that she got her very first smooch(es) from the opposite sex! hahahahahaha. well if a kiss on the cheek qualifies as one =P. we were browsing through a home appliance store in Subang where there was a couple with their 2 year-old kid. the two little ones kinda bonded a bit while the older generation oohed and ahhed over the appliances (you know how Dayana is once she spots a kiddo her age, lol). the kid was cute (he was of mixed parentage) and super friendly. he tried to high-five Dayana but i think she didn't understand ('gimme five' and 'high-five' seem to be two different things to her) but she did trail after the kid, dragging her Chewy along T_T. he even knocked her to the floor in an attempt to hug her, lol. hope we see the family around in the future. they seem really nice =) (and i hate it when i freeze in an attempt to start conversations with strangers, bahhh).

yesterday me, Significant Other, Gesty and Amal played Monopoly. somehow it's the current thing to play when everyone's at home =). guess who won?

new year, new hope

happy 2010! i spent my three-day holidays at home doing absolutely nothing. what a way to usher in the New Year, eh? with a toddler running around entangling herself around my ankles i find it a bit difficult to celebrate the New Year AND keep my toddler within eyesight. so better stay at home and be able to keep your sanity and peace of mind intact. lol.

i kind of have the feeling that twenty-ten wouldn't be a super year for me. i'm not sure why. i had this foreboding feeling of dread just as we were about to usher in the new year. a friend of mine told me that it's still too early to know if it's going to be a bad year or not. even so...

then again, i have really bad instincts, haha. alot has happened in 2009.

- i've breathed air for 27 years.
- i've entered the workforce for 5 years already :O :O :O
- it's been 1 year 4 months since i became a mom.
- our finally awaited crib is completed and we finally collected the keys - yay! (although, renovations await, meaning more $$ flying out the window)
- i've decided to get over my shoe obsession and move to a even more expensive obsession - babywearing T_T
- i now own for the very first time my own Coach bag. haha =P
- i've managed to cut up two of my credit cards, but i still have the others to maintain T_T

this year i didn't make a list of new year's resolutions, because i know i'd end up breaking all of them anyway. so i only made a general list of which i'm hoping to achieve, even if it's just a little.

- to improve on my financial situation. spend less, save more, pay back my dues (i thank all my friends who have been really patient with me all this while)
- to look forward to my career and hope it will not drain me physically, emotionally and mentally (because you know how stressful telco line can be)
- improve on my crappy cooking skills - i think i'm <40kg because i don't feed myself properly (and i'm not living with my mom lol). rather starve than splurging on food, i think that should be a big no-no for this year.
- love more, more patience, more tolerance (i need a LOT of this!)
- take up a hobby - i have yet to know what it is. dance? knit?
- and most importantly, give the best to my daughter and family.

again, wishing all of you a good 2010! and may we stop grumbling about what we don't have and be thankful for everything that we do have =)

saujana residency

i had to take half-day leave today to keep this appointment. since everything was a last minute notice thing, we were lucky enough to get squeezed into an available timeslot. all this while we've been passing by each day looking from the outside. so today's the day we finally get a peek inside. whee~

and to think we signed the agreement in December 2005. that was almost 4 years ago. lol.

i know alot needs to be done for before we can actually call it a home. not to mention that it's really tiny, suitable for a family of 4; not sure what will happen once that number turns to 5. and i don't even want to think about the $$$ that will be pouring out like water for the renovations and doing up the place. so for the moment we're just savoring the feeling of actually having a place to call our own. i'm only not sure of when that is. haha.

the good thing about this area is you have most of everything - there's a shopping complex in walking distance so i won't have to worry much about purchasing necessities and other stuff. there's even the ktm, but i'm hoping the lrt will extend the lines to our area. i can't stand the ktm. i think i'd be dead by the time ktm decides to improve itself. i dunno how other people can tahan waiting and taking the ktm (i salute you Kalpana!).

so... any IDs out there interested in suggesting ideas on how we can do up the place? because i don't have a single creative bone in my body, so suggestions are always welcomed =)

si kecik running around the house getting herself dusty

the living room view. you can actually spy KL Tower from afar

the public bathroom lol. one of its unique features that made us buy this place.

view of the Olympic pool and Suria Tower

si kecik having fun at the play area

my indio swatches

some mamas have been asking me what color are my indios because from photos they just look a boring white. if the contrast isn't obvious, they'll usually turn out that way in photos. well, actually they're not. they're actually lovelier irl.

the threads up close:

mandarin - a shocking orange; lago - sageish green; quarz - pale pinkish purple

and here they are all scrunched up: mandarin, lago, quarz.

on another note, this is one happy family, eh? =D

photo taken from Ellevill website

an evening of so-called fun

OT: i found a little short story hilariously funny... at my sista's blog =P

so yesterday evening we went to Pyramid and brought Dayana along. the day we had our movie marathon i got myself a new set of eyes so the total amount purchased entitled us to redeem complimentary vouchers for RM20 worth of rides in the Nite Park at Sunway Lagoon. in the first place, i didn't even know they had a nite park. entry is free until the end of January 2010 i think. we even got a voucher for us to purchase tickets for the Dolphins & Sea Lions Show at 30% off. you can't miss it, it's located at the Pyramid Open Air Carpark. both vouchers were valid until end of January next year.

since it was loooking a little drizzly outside, we decided to just stick to indoors for today, and opt for the nite park for another day. they had a mini carnival indoors in the old wing, with a merry go round, a train ride, a helicopter ride, bumper cars, and even a ferris wheel, to name a few (all in kiddo version, of course). we knew Dayana would be excited to try some of the rides so we purchased a prepaid card which could be used on all of the rides, and get or balance refunded once we're finished.

now, who in their right mind would let their 1yr+ old kid go on all the rides all by themself? definitely not me. before purchasing a prepaid i specifically asked if kids Dayana's age could go on the rides, the Malay lady at the ticketing booth said yes, i only had to pay for one and i still got to accompany Dayana on the rides. so ok la fine. so we had a go on the merry go round. i paid for One person. Dayana was kinda blur at first, but after a few turns around the merry go round she got used to it and started waving at Daddy. when the ride finished she didn't seem to want to let go of the horse. hehe.

horsie!

next up was the train ride. i asked the guy manning the ride if Dayana could go on the ride. the train ride was rather jerky and fast, and even though they had safety belts i still wasn't sure if it was safe for her to go on the ride alone. i also paid for One person. it was a tight squeeze for me though T_T. Dayana loved this ride even better than the first. she got to turn the steering wheel (both wheels, i might add, apa punye style i pun tak tau). she protested when the ride ended and i wanted to get her out of the car.

see how cramped i was in there hahahah

she didn't want to get off the ride

the third ride we wanted her to go on was the heli ride. it was this fast contraption that spun round and round - quite fast i might add - high above the ground. again, i asked if Dayana could go on the ride. but the two Indian ladies manning the ride said that if i was going to accompany Dayana, i had to pay for Two people. and they went and swiped my card twice. i was like, wth? are they expecting me to let Dayana ride the spinning helicopter all by herself at her age? are they crazy or what? and i don't care if they had safety belts and gates or whatever.

i told them that lady at the ticketing booth said that i could accompany my daughter on the rides without additional charge. so they went back to the booth to clarify. and you know what? suddenly the Malay lady decided to change her statement saying, oh, only the merry go round i can ride for free because i'd just be standing there holding my daughter while she goes up and down on the merry go round and i was like, wtf?? the guy at the train ride didn't even charge me when i got on the train ride. and now you fleabag women want to charge me for the heli ride???

furthermore one of the Indian ladies kept saying that they only admitted for free children below One year old, while the other one said that once the child can walk they will charge for the admission. lagi another piece of crap coming out from their mouths. for one thing, how the hell do you know how old the child is? for all you care, i could've just crapped that my daughter was 11 months old, you wouldn't know the difference. and another thing, what if you child was super great and managed to start walking at the age below One? i mean seriously. just because the child can walk doesn't mean she's capable to going on the rides all by themself. i mean, most amusement theme parks allow free admission for children below Three, the age when children are capable of knowing what's right from wrong, then they know what's going around their surroundings. heck, at my daughter's age, she loves to simply speed off in any direction once we set her on the ground, regardless of who and what is around her. what if she suddenly decides to stand up on the ride and somethingunintentional happens? i mean, seriously.

maybe i'm overreacting. i mean it's just rm3 a ride. but the value rm3 is alot to me. i just think it's unfair that you charge admission for any child below Two. we were so pissed that the stupid lady decided to change her statement that we demanded for a refund, including the heli ride. and off we went in a huff. poor Dayana. she seemed to be enjoying herself. up until those ladies decided to rip us off.

one thing about Dayana is at her age, she gets easily distracted. if we go to shopping complexes, all she wants to do is walk all by herself without anyone holding her hand. if we do try to hold her hand, she'll mengamuk and firmly set her butt on the ground. she'll dawdle at every store window, staring at this, staring at that, staring at people (especially kids her size), stopping every few seconds to stare at goodness knows what T_T. omg you must be a really patient person if you want to try to get her to follow you. and she'll protest if you pick her up and move her little butt for being too slow. lol. she doesn't even mind if you tell her bye bye, she'll totally ignore me and her Daddy and continue to dawdle among strangers. haiz. she even protests if we put her in her stroller, or if i decide to wear her @@.

sigh. the beauty of discovering that you can walk. kekekeke. tell me, how long does this phase last?

Dayana's twin =P

proud to be Malaysian?

sometimes i just can't help but shake my head at the attitudes of Malaysians these days. not only do they not have proper manners on the road (cutting queue, being inconsiderate to others esp. pedestrians, yada yada), they don't even have proper manners among themselves!

left the office quite late today even though the company was on half day today (i was busy depleting the company's paper supply) and Significant Other wanted to buy FIFA 2010 and a new PS controller so we drove all the way to the Curve to get it since KLCC was out of stock. after getting his junk we thought to have a bite to eat before heading back. so we headed off to our usual - Warong Penyet.

Significant Other's fav ayam place

so naturally at 8-ish most of the restaurants were packed, and this was no exception. only thing is, there were a few couples (as in TWO people) who were sitting at tables that were meant for four. but that was still ok since the table can actually be split into two to cater for two different couples. there'd be a small gap in between since the restaurant is slightly cramped, but that's ok, as long as your tummy is happy, right?

so there was this middle aged MALAY couple seated at a table by the window, occupying two tables. they were waiting for their order to arrive, totally oblivious to others that were mingling around waiting for a table. the lady had her handbag on the table, and they arranged all the sauces and chillis on the connecting table. the waitress saw us standing around so she went up to the couple to ask if she could separate the tables so that others could occupy it.

but did you know what the old guy said to the waitress? the table they had was too small to hold all their food! wth! *$&*(@#&@#^(*@. for one thing, if she would have removed her gigantic bag (that took up 1/4 of the table space, i might add) they would have more room for their food, wouldn't they?

come on man, others seem to be just fine with their small table. and did you notice that there are others waiting to find a place to sit? not to mention some of them had young children with them. how INCONSIDERATE can you be??????

the evil couple. you can't really see the table from our angle

if we had Dayana with us, Significant Other would have told the stupid couple off. if he had wanted a bigger table, go eat at those expensive restaurants lah. eeeeeeeeeeee benciiiii. i hate selfish people. see how bad Malaysians can be sometimes?

we were lucky enough to have another couple (i'm not sure foreign, but definitely not Malay) happily separate their table for us. they ordered a lot too. but i don't see them complaining of no room. bahhhh. i was so irritated that i took a photo of the stupid couple. even though you're almost at the age that's considered 'warga emas', doesn't mean you're entitled to two tables for only two people. were they planning on eating the table too?

i really don't know if i should be disappointed in Malaysians or just plain Malays. i even read in someone's blog about how this bunch of teenage girls had the audacity to cut in front of queue ahead of a foreigner in the toilet and even started bitching about the lady in their tongue language after the lady kindly told them that they should queue up in line for their turn. how sorry is that?
(i need to find that blog again to confirm my memory. that's the trouble with blog hopping. you forget what you read and from where haha).

so... should i be proud of how the people are projecting our country to the outsiders?

gradation lust

ok so i should be done with after finally getting my hands on one, no?
=P
but anyway just thought i might post these two here, i really love the color grads on it, made especially by Dragonfly Beginnings. and it doesn't help that i'd like to try the two materials one day. lol. i've only tried cotton and linen before.

db zinnober with wool, dyed in my fav colors!

db natty linen, a lovely shade of roseberry

i heart this too! but it's a little bit on the purple side

and the other two below are just eye candy =D i love the colors!

blue-green gradation on Lago indio, i don't seem to have a carrier in this shade

natty cashmere, see how attracted to purple i am? despite hating the color? lol

p/s. pleats have arrived =D